At some point in my life I realized that I had these relationships in my past and in my present and it was breaking my heart every day a little more. It became real a few years ago when my reality was shaken by a lie. Past feelings of abandonment and disappointment all came crashing down on me and my heart was broken again. It was then I started to pray for wisdom and out of a desperate search for answers, I was very specific with God. Turning to the One who created me for great things brought peace and an answer that allowed me to let go of the feelings that kept me searching for others to make me happy. People will disappoint us but God will always be faithful. It was time for me to stop relying on others to bring happiness in my life. It was time to stop waiting for others to change, for others to say "I love you," or "I'm sorry." I knew God had a plan and clearly that plan wasn't dependent on those around me.
We have to take responsibility for our own healing hearts by forgiving and grieving what we didn't get from those who have hurt us in our past. It is not until we start to put those relationships in their proper place that we start to see our true selves. We can see others for who they are and that they too are struggling, maybe more than you. But don't let their brokenness limit who you can be or what God can do in your life. Don't let others determine your value or worth. When you turn your heart to God, you are able to also put others in His hands to take care of and you can love more freely.
Turning to Jesus allows me to give grace where it's needed and have the wisdom to know what I can control and what I can't. No longer do I depend on others for acceptance or affirmation. I can be me, just as God created me to be.
1 John 4:4 " You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world."
*inspired by The Mended Heart, by Suzanne Eller
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